i'm so fucked. so fucking tired. so fucking bored. so fucking screwed. cos i think i'm hooked. so fuck that.
and i'm becoming terribly short tempered.
i was high at work. it was fun, packing stock and the retail wall. cos it felt like i had absolute control, for the amount of time it took me to pack, and i was reorganising. something i haven't been able to apply to my life. i feel i have no control. like my life is falling apart around me. and i don't even know which way to head. i don't understand a thing that's going on right now. special sem is killing me, not that it's exceptionally difficult. it's terribly boring..and time consuming. i'm thinking hard about working when school starts. i'm undecided as of now, don't start blasting me. i really really need a break. ugh...
i hope argentina wins tonight. cos i can't quite picture germany lifting the world cup. so they might as well go down to a good-ish team. don't misunderstand though, i'm not a fan of the argentinians.
"and we're not gonna live forever, can you tell me is it now or never, i'm not gonna make up your mind.
i don't wanna live without you, and i don't wanna live a lie. we'll never know till we try."
